Checking in with yourself

I have never really been one for new years resolutions mostly because whenever I try to cut out chocolate it never works!  So now I don’t make traditional resolutions, instead I continue with my gratitude lists and do a mental recap of what happened over the year. I look at both the difficult stuff as well as the wonderful parts that I am thankful for. I find that helps me to take inventory and move forward in a way that feels a bit more spacious and open to possibility.

One of my favourites - the lotus grows through the muck to blossom in the sun

One of my favourites mantras- the lotus flower grows from and through the mud up towards the sun. Transformation through suffering to peace. (thanks Thich Nhat Hahn)

The reason I look at the difficult stuff in my ‘personal mental recap of the year’ is because it needs attention too. You can’t have light without dark and you can’t face your fears without first acknowledging what they are. As tempting as it is to stick my head in the sand and not think about things ( and sometimes I do that if really needed) I feel better when I give the difficult emotions some of my time and attention. It lessens their power, softens their  edges and sometimes even helps them to resolve. I don’t dwell on them , I just hold them and feel them out. I notice what reaction my body has to them and I try and breathe through it. Then I give permission for it to be there as long as it needs to, but also to let go if it when I need to.

The rebound effect seems to be that I feel even more gratitude for the good that has happened and don’t feel so anxious and overwhelmed about the bad stuff. 

Some ways to help check in with yourself and be in the moment:

  • Meditation – you can do this for as little as 2 minutes a day or as long as you want to. It’s an ideal way to just sit with your emotions without judging them, or trying to fix them. Just let them be and observe.
  • Journaling – can be done on its own anytime or even after meditation to write down any insights that may have come up.
  • Going for a long walk in nature – stopping to sit along the way to think about your year and breathe through whatever comes up
  • Give yourself permission to let go of anything you are carrying around that longer serves a purpose in your life

Being present with how you are feeling also helps you to become aware of where you might be depleted energetically. It helps you see if it’s time to “fill up your well”.  Self care is different for everyone but a good way to replenish your energy is to take some time doing things that nourish your soul and bring you joy. They can be little things or big things. That is up to you.

Happy 2016 – may it be a good one!




Mindfulness can help manage your stress and anxiety

I wrote a guest post for Rethink Breast Cancer’s blog this week. The post offers some tips and info about mindfulness and how it can help with stress and anxiety. Rethink Breast Cancer is a charity that offers support to young women living with breast cancer.

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I am a big fan of mindfulness because it is such a powerful self care tool for living with a chronic illness of any kind, stress, fatigue, anxiety and the list goes on. It’s something that you can do for yourself to help your own healing journey.


Exploring the present moment

In May I was lucky enough to attend a weekend retreat at Omega with Pema Chodron. She is an American Buddhist nun and meditation master. She has written many books about dealing with fear, pain and uncertainty in everyday life. She teaches on how to cultivate acceptance and compassion for yourself, others and the world around you.

I was so excited leading up to it. I didn’t really know what to expect. Of course she was amazing, even in a room of 500 people her energy totally set the tone and could be felt throughout the entire space. 

We dove in to the idea of touching the present moment. That in fact was the title and theme of the entire weekend.  She covered a lot of material and this blog post would be way too long if I did them all. So for this month I picked the concept of labelling and being present. The concept of ‘labelling’ is universal. We all do it.  I feel that it applies to so many things in my life.

The teaching explores the fact that we all label things as soon as they are happening to us, sometimes before they even start to happen. We label people, events and experiences and then we fixate on them as a way to keep control of our lives and resist change – even though change is inevitable.

A quick example: We meet someone new and based on the way they look, a few things that they say or what we may have heard about them, our mind creates a label of who we think that person is  or what their intentions are. We stick that label on the person and then it becomes very hard to take it off. We do this with new people and we do it with people who have been in our lives for a long time. Sometimes we do it to those we love even more. We also do it to ourselves when we say things like “ I could never do that” or “I’m not good enough for that”. Or we label situations too like “today is going to be awful, I hate going to that place”. In a way we have already set the stage by giving a label to something that hasn’t even happened yet.

Once we have labelled something we tend to put it in a box and not allow it any room to change. For example “ She always does that” or “ I won’t even bother because he doesn’t care”. Then instead of seeing that person, place or event as fresh and new each time, we see it through the lens of our label. That is ok, that is human, we all do it. However our labels keep us rigid, the more we want control of our lives the more we use our labels, the more tight and wound up and fixed we become.

Over the weekend Pema was asking us to look at this process and think of how our labels can make us like hard like ice. She challenged us to try and find the water in the ice. Try and become aware of when we start to label and then instead of letting ourselves become rigid and wrapped up in how we think things should be, explore becoming fluid instead.  Notice when it is happening, become aware, then allow yourself to be in the moment to see what is truly in front of you instead of the concept you have set in your mind about it from previous experience.

“ You need to be present with yourself and not give yourself a fixed label. Our stress comes from having a fixed idea of ourselves and how we want things to go.”  – Pema Chodron

So what do we do with this?

Being mindful and returning to the present moment as often as you can is a really good place to start the process of becoming more fluid, more open to what is truly happening around you. Once you become more open and caring towards yourself it becomes easier to start doing the same for others.

“Feel tenderness for your human-ness and everyone else’s human-ness” – Pema Chodron

Try experimenting with the idea of letting yourself and others exist in open space. Space that is full of possibility and empty of judgement and pre conceived notions. It’s not easy to do. It really is a practice that we can work on every day, several times a day. The more you pause to be aware of the present moment the more you get out of the story in your head and into the reality of life around you. Meditation is one of the best ways to find space within you.

 In addition to sitting down and meditating here are 3 quick, simple ways to get into the present moment:

  1. When you feel yourself getting worked up – stop whatever you are doing and go look at the sky.  Enjoy that sense of spaciousness all around you.
  2. Use your breath – stop what you are doing and just take 3 slow, deep breaths. Repeat as often as needed.
  3. Look around the room you are in and try to see 2 things that you have never noticed before. Using a beginners mind. 

I have been playing with this concept ever since the retreat weekend. Some days are easier than others but the more I do it the more I love it.  When I feel myself getting worked up or starting to label so I can keep things in a box and under control, I just pause and breathe, even for a moment, in awareness. I give myself some space.  I try to be a little more fluid, a little less rigid and see the world without my agenda overlapping it. It is a work in progress and it gets pretty interesting once you start to notice your emotional habits.

Life will always be full of wonderful experiences and incredibly difficult ones. That is just how life works. Change really is inevitable. Having a few tools in my back pocket to ride those waves instead of resisting them seems to be making a difference in my life. It feels like a good start. Thanks Pema.


Wise Little Ones

Lately my 6 year old and I have been doing some yoga together. She also likes to do it on her own following the pictures in her kids yoga book. I must admit as a yoga teacher it makes my heart smile to see her starting to explore her own yoga. But the part that has really taken me by surprise is that in her own 6 year old mind, on her own level she understands yoga. She also know when to use it, or rather when to remind me to use it. 

She has created a little sequence that she calls Sky Pose. She says it helps her when she gets frustrated and that I should try it when I am frustrated. One day when I was losing it with her little sister for something totally ridiculous I felt a little tap on my arm. Kaia looks up at me and says, “maybe you should do skye pose”?

Of course my first reaction was ,”are you kidding? Don’t tell me what to do when I’m angry, stay out of this. I’m the mom, I’m in charge.” ( Yes I said that in my head of course).

 She was looking at me in such earnest that I sighed and said, ” sure ok fine let’s do skye pose”. I did it with her. Then we took 3 deeps breaths together and my anger was gone. Just like that. My need to yell and scream was gone. I still wasn’t happy with what her little sister was doing but I looked at her and instead of wanting to yell I felt like I could keep my cool and navigate my way through the incident with more patience.

All we did was stop, breathe, stretch our arms overhead and bring our palms together down to our hearts and deep breathe again. So simple and so effective. It was made even more powerful for me because it was my 6 year old daughter who recognized what I needed in that moment and guided me through it.

Yoga was the example for me but beautiful lessons from children come in all shapes and sizes. They show up in many different situations.  Children, no matter what age are incredibly wise and have so much to teach us. We just need to make sure we are listening.



Happy 2015!

I read an article this week that I loved and thought I would share it with you as we start of off this new year. It is the speech zen buddhist monk Norman Fischer gave as his Baccalaureate address at Stanford University in 2014. I like it because it is so simple and so true. It brings it back to basics, yet fills you with hope and excitement about moving forward at the same time.  It is about being present, being of service and bringing it back to love.

Here is a passage I really liked:

“Your life isn’t and has never been about you. It isn’t and has never been about what you accomplish, how successful you are or are not, how much money you make, what sort of position you ascend to, or even about your family, your associations, your various communities, or how much good you do for others or the world at large. Your life, like mine, and like everyone else’s, has always been about one thing: love.”

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May this year bring you closer to love on all levels.