I was trying to think of a way to recap this past month and capture what it was like for us. The best way that I could think of was to list all the things I am thankful for. Now I know that might sound strange coming from someone who was just diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer in her bones but trust me when I really think about it , the list is long…..
I AM THANKFUL for my radiation oncologist who looked at my scans and thought that surgery was needed asap before any radiation was done AND for the amazing neurosurgeon who repaired my fractured spine so I no longer had to worry about the potential of paralysis from the bone mets.
I AM THANKFUL for all the different drug options that exist for women with breast cancer that has metastasized to the bones. I am thankful that I have team of nurses and doctors who will do their best to make sure that everything that should be done is.
I AM THANKFUL for the wonderful nurses who took care of me at the hospital in the early days right after my 7 hour spinal surgery. You are very good at what you do.
I AM GRATEFUL for my superstar, knight in shining armour, best friend of a husband who is always by my side and who spent his birthday sleeping in a chair next to my hospital bed so I wouldn’t be alone the night after my surgery. Then he went home to take care of our daughters and try to keep some sort of normal for them even though I’m sure normal was not was he was feeling inside.
I AM GRATEFUL for my best friends who showed up with food, magazines, laptops loaded with smutty TV and movies,hugs and tissue to wipe away my tears of anxiety as I told them my fears and worries in the hours and days after surgery.
I AM THANKFUL for the meal train my friends organized for us. So many delicious dinners, made with love and dropped off at our door each night so my hubby didn’t have to stress about what we would eat while I was totally out of commission.
I AM THANKFUL for my incredible family who showered us with so much love and support even though many of them are going through their own battles.
I AM GRATEFUL for the flowers, treats, magazines and gifts for the us and the kids that kept showing up at our door. Wow were we spoiled!
I AM HAPPY for the painkillers I take. Even though they haven’t totally got rid of my pain I have a feeling things would be way more painful without them.
I AM THANKFUL for the phenomenal Naturopathic Doctor I was introduced to who specializes in oncology and cancer treatment. She has been a strong source of knowledge, piece of mind and hope.
I AM GRATEFUL for the simple fact that I can CHOOSE how I am am going to perceive and react to everything that is happening to us.
I AM THANKFUL for my mother who taught me how to be strong and to never give up. I know she is always with me in spirit.
I AM SO VERY BLESSED to have my angels on earth. My two giggling, curious, sometimes driving each other and us crazy, loving, funny, sweet baby girls. My rainbows, sunshine and magic all packaged up in two little people.
AND I AM MOST THANKFUL for all the LOVE. LOVE that comes in all shapes, sizes, ways, words, actions, thoughts and deeds from all our friends and family.
That doesn’t mean that I don’t cry or have bad days or wish this never happened because I do! but within all the bad I CHOOSE to see some good. So I move forward into 2014 ready to take it on and whenever I feel like it’s getting tough I will remind myself of all that I am thankful for. The list is long….
Happy New Year full of health, laughter, joy and new adventures to you all!
What will you be thankful for in 2014?